Some Found Things

Some found things
by the road
to your home:

Your pair of
eyeglasses
thrown away
forsaking
clarity;
torn pieces
of paper
hastily
scribbled with
familiar
acronyms;
little bits
of chipped wood
from what seemed
like a well-
split pencil.

The small road
told your tale
as it was.


  * * *


Your small house,
commonplace
corpuscle,
lost you well.

Where should I
find some marks
of your faint
fingerprints?
Should I start
making up
wild stories?
Like, let’s say
“He was here
but found this
world wanting,
that he fled”,
or “he loved
them, the lights,
very much
he’d rather
in the dark
stay hiding.”

Those great dreams
you spoke of
now orphaned
walls, pillars
with no nails,
subterfuged
cobbed corners
bereft of
your trademarks,
absent your
presences.

Accuweather

The latest update
was a cloudless sky
for most of the world,
Manila to Toronto,
calmer docks in Miami,
clearer outlook in Dhaka.
Save a dark brown patch
on the radar screen
over southern regions of China,
all is good for a moped rendezvous.

This is the new fear, the one
to keep our weary eyes on.
We'll take the dusty road
close to the reservoir,
get a good look at the water
beyond its critical level, rationalize
the schedule of rations and why
our faucets are still dry
even in the first months
of the rainy season.

Friday

Friday. You both wore the same shade
of color: royal blue, a language
understood by a few, that exclusive
party of him and you.
There, that unspoken agreement
hidden in plain view, was clear
to me. Just me. Nobody else.
You did everything in stealth.

A paranoid would have gone crazy
not knowing the back story,
subterfuged history,
anecdotes passed in whispers,
why it became clear he held
an umbrella over your head
in a morning that had a light rain
while I stood from a distance
in a weathered raincoat
and my skin turned slightly green.

Argh

Some dire things

That I fear

Like losing

You my dear

Snaps behind

My left ear

More wary

Of the mere

Thought of you

Not found here

Beside me

Makes me hear

Crazy things,

Makes me swear

Crazy things,

Might as well

Drown in beer.

Some key things

I hold dear,

Losing you

I most fear,

I peek through

The veneer

See if you

Have come here,

Praying you’re

Coming here,

But you are

Nowhere near.

Let me grab

One more beer.

Residence

Hi. Welcome
to my home
where a cat
imprints on
the leather
ottoman
her own sui
generis 
signature
scratched beside
my penciled
version of
that lucky,
auspicious
Tree of Life;
a turtle
paints green trails
of himself
on the smooth
white-tiled floor;
how the dank
toilet room
has passed days
untidy,
molds forming
strange colors
where water
used to drench;
and up there, 
the bedroom’s
grayed ceiling,
a spider
weaves a thin
prismatic
most fragile
expression
of herself.

There’s not much
space to run
and let dreams
wildly fly
and the paint
on the walls
have all gone
brittle with
traitor time.
But please do
come in. Please,
I insist.
I have chairs,
some corners,
dainty cups
for coffee
or hot tea,
a window 
with a view
of city
and a mind
that’s brimming
with stories,
poesies,
heresies.

A Brown Bird

A brown bird
perched atop
a wizened
brittle branch,
trusted all
of its weight
on the gnarled
forgotten
thin fingers
of an old
sycamore.

The wind snapped
the branch from
its comfort,
broke the weak
dying stem
and blew it
on the gray
hot pavement.

Left dead at
the asphalt,
that old branch
forsook its
hopeful wish
to ever
grow its own
small green leaves.

Hastily
the brown bird
flew away
with its wings.

At Eastwood

Well, problems
tastes better
with gulped beers,
hot noodles,
crispy-fried
kangkong leaves,
more at home
with kind friends
who'd really
sincerely
be all ears.
Some empty
wooden chairs
around us
I wish were
occupied,
more open
hearts and minds
to give some
kind advice,
carry up
that heavy
weight of your
current world,
heavy as
the March heat
on our heads.
I might have
stayed longer
after shots
with faved stars,
but sorry
I have skipped
more stories
from your tongue
for your voice
can't compete
through the blare
that loud blare
I barely
heard you well.

Oh Brother

i.  
It’s obvious: truth’s little fingers comb
the inner walls of her growing womb.
No use for secret.  Secret is a hypocrite.
It would rather dwell in the dark.
Secret transfigures into truth.
Truth desires to see light,
learn to walk on its two feet, learn to speak.
Don’t wait for truth to point it’s finger at you
and scream. Words are more painful than fists.
The universe conspires for a flourishing, healthy truth.
If you need to explain, explain it to the truth.
Make your explanations easier to swallow.
Roll and fry a meatball of a joke.  Truth might laugh.
Unplanned situations demand unplanned laughter.


ii.
Truth grew up, your spit and image.
His little sister blossomed - has your smile.
Burly as your dream, he’d search
The fats of your memory, bits of your love,
On toys that came in boxes.
She’d be bright as lanterns
Reed thin with delight
the gleam in her eyes gone.
They grew older than their ages
Permitting emptiness’ presence
In their lives, tired of asking questions
on Christmas, on birthdays,
because nobody answers,
nobody comes.


iii.
I'm telling it as it is. 
She pretended to be you behind the glowing screen.
I pretended to know her like I know my brother.
And when the words quivered, trembled
too much with the invisible, unsure electric
that brought the message over, I knew
some cords have already been cut, contracts
burned in the heat of the desert sun,
and the world you left to make better
completely gone.  You bit the apple
and you're not even in the garden,
the original trajectory of your life deserted
for the desert. And in her emptiness you found
the fruit tasted sweeter. 
And I comprehend the travails of a fellow weak creature.
And I'm telling it as it is.


iv.

We're all made evil by this act -
sins of anger, sins of avarice
your fruits bear heavily in their hearts,
sins of rumors, sins of lies
flying constantly in the emails, in our minds
haplessly snatching which words,
which stories are true anymore.
Now we all bit the apple from the tree
the lecherous snake coiling around our heads
its tail stretching further from your thumping fingers,
arcane Facebook accounts, sly messages
constant absences, delayed supports.
Look, there's a hole beneath our feet.
We're digging it from both ends of the world.
The devil is waiting with fiery hate
we can't help burning from the hearths of our hearts.

New Year's Eve

New year's eve.
The drizzle
has filled up
the gutters.
Firecrackers
are all wet
for bursting,
no sparkles
to garden
our front lawn.

The kitchen
is in great
dire state of
disrepair.
The worn sink
is molding
where the white
dry cement
used to fill.
We do with
the measly
morsels we
preciously
have cooked for
our pleasure.

In his room,
Papa's cough
is our sole
noisemaker
in the house
to ward off
the past year's
odious ghosts.
He tries hard
to be man
of the house
one more time
with what's left
of spaces
in his lungs,
energy
to heave from
his belly
all his last
convincing,
fatherly
final boom.

Jom and Mei
keep themselves
in the room
recalling
past new years
were better
than this one.

My brothers,
we blow out
those trumpets,
wake what new
tales will come
breezing through
our small house,
but our house
tells us now
that it's tired,
waiting which
old stories
are ready
to be shelved.
It has lost
some hopeful
perspectives
this first step
of the year
while the sky
is keeping
behind deep
mats of clouds
all its stars.

Drought

The water turned itself to heat
leaving the land flaking to dust.
He wonders how the crops will grow
emerald and robust
when the brown color of burning
has crawled its way from the tips
of leaves down to the stem,
the demarcation of struggling
to survive has become smaller
and smaller as summer progresses.

Resolute he will never be
broken and seeking refuge
in an onomatopeic, scalding city
subjugated to a career
having the sun-loved backs of his palms
parallel to the ground.
He prays for something biblical
to redirect a river's flow
and quench the acres of dried
desertifying land.

But the river itself is thirsty
having lost its being a river -
So he ponders displacing to somewhere
water is still water.
Then again, there's nowhere to go
when the heat, cloudless and unyielding,
burning slowly whatever it touches,
bearing the heavy belly of its air
over the earth, borderless as the wind,
smugly blows around his archipelago.



San Pablo, Laguna
March 12, 2010

Yolanda

When we awoke to rummage through
Some memories that were swept
From the coast and inwards to the city
We had to tread the piles of debris,
Walk the littered highways with our tired dispositions
Past a ship that was easily disanchored
By the surging arms of a powerful ocean.
We overturned some cupboards for morsel
But got greeted by a neighbor’s carcass
Who once loved to belt out, in his karaoke pastimes,
Gloria Gaynor’s “I Will Survive.”
Close to our location, a throng of people
Piling away from a store some plastics of rice
Never mind how they can make fire from wet woodpiles
Or where to get clean water.
Wouldn’t it have been better to be swept away,
let the Earth or the sea be left responsible for our bodies?
Here is another lesson that the world is teaching us
That we’re too hungry to comprehend.

(Note: I should have posted this 2 years ago.  Oh well, better late than never.)

Portrait of A River

Noon burns on

A river

Black as oil.

The smacks mauve

In color.

The rusts climb
Persistent,
Barnacles
On each of
The boats' sides
Easily
As if it's
Quite proper
To go forth,
Multiply,
Gnaw away
The iron.

And inside
Light transits
Some people
Gaze at clouds,
The outlines
Of cities
Growing old
And modern,
At the sea
Shimmering
Pellucid
And distant.

But no one
Dare look at
The river.

So I Live

So I live.

I have dreamt
better dreams
for myself,
my precious
miniscule
existence
plow through this
confused world
unknowing
what it wants
to become.


For my life
of missed chances
have remained
like a long
bucket list
of things left
unfinished,
cathedrals
of mountains
unconquered,
victories
unachieved.


Who ever
have been most
uncertain
about paths
and crossroads,
directions
to turn to
can ask me
"which wrong star
have you been
following?
How winding
has your path
taken you?"


I'll show him
countless stars
which I can't
decide on;

I'll show him
the far track
I have trekked
and tell him
"there, my story
loops around,
rarely straight,
sketch of lines
like brambles,
too much time
thinking twice,
diversions,
too much sin."



If ever
he reflects
the same sad
subduedness
that he holds 
in the glum
fogged landscape
not knowing
where to turn,
I'll tell him
"Now, watch me,
a confused
weaver of
my story.
Don't repeat.
The world needs
a creature
of lessons
for caution,
so I live."



(Note to self.  Check back on this after a year.  See if it still holds up.)

how to sell

In this age,
Digital
they call it,
secrets sell
more than loud
boisterous
announcements.
Little hints
of half truths
and half lies
beguiles more,
delights more,
captivates;
seductive,
sacrosanct.

Boys and girls,
men, women
who know how
to keep it
behind their
prettiness
allures more,
enchants more.

Sometimes I
wish I had
their strange whiff
of mystique,
this magic
to entice,
so that I
can pull you
here, closer
to my words
like monsoon
dragonflies
studying
a still pond:

You might find
my trifling
school of kois
int'resting.

I'm still poor

I'm still poor,
no jacket
for the cold
Antarctic;
no ticket
to fly back
to my home,
the islands
there, Southeast;
no good food,
only canned meats,
icicles
boiled for drinks.
My supplies
would dwindle
fearfully
the harsh months
ghoul over
the home base
like an old,
wronged yeti.

The world is
quite sad here.
Nothing proud
to share with.
I thought that
hefty rich
distances
would calm me.
Out here though,
the weather's
more brawny,
while my own
weather's quite
lunatic.

What I've done,
what I chose
flays me well.
I feel less
of my flesh
desire the
hold further
to my bones.
Almighty
Lord above,
Blessed God
the Father,
Son of Man,
forgive me
for I don't
know what I
have done, what
to do and
what I am
still doing.

Aldubbin'

She spots his
Twinkly eyes
And giggles
Girlishly.
He sees her
Funny face
Splash on the
TV screen.
Something quite
Fascinating
Magical
Boy meets girl
Love story
This way comes.
Something clicks,
Some crazy
Enchantment
We can't turn
Away from
What is now
This lovely
Fairy tale
As old as
Tricky time,
We're held still
Mesmerized
For that small
And sacred
Split second
When they saw
Their two selves
Possibly
Together,
Playing in
Their own small
Universe.

Saxophony

In the blue
hushed corners
he played soft
mournful tunes,
blowing through
his mouthpiece,
ring finger
pressing the
front F key.


A note flew
somewhere high -
out of place.


He glimpsed at
a woman
aroused from
her stupor
smiled richly
with a sip 
from her pink
hot cocktail.
He caught her
hurried wink,
thought it quite
nice to have
admirers
young, pleasing
to one’s eyes
that barely 
see those notes
scribbled wet
on paper.


He caught her
hurried wink
once again
but this time
past him though,
flying straight
to the young
cute cellist.


Readily
he laughed at
the mistake
and poured more
forlorn tunes
into space.

Your Garden

Your garden
had roses,
some orchids,
white jasmines
and thick shrubs
of santan.

My childhood
spent time there --
plucked some buds,
played with bees,
bathed in
lighter rains,
suntanned in
gentler heats.

Days have aged
quite too soon;
Years have passed
quite uncouth.

Now, grasses
squatted on
bare patches.
The flowers,
they're all gone.

And you, sir
of poor sight,
thinner skin,
weaker knees,
tend the earth
growing rocks.

Three-syllable poems

While I was reading a snippet of Takuboku Ishikawa's bio, the Japanese tanka master, I was amused at the idea of how his poems expressed their emotions and ideas as precise as the poet intended them to be in only three lines.  Much like its predecessor, the 5-7-5 syllabically arranged haiku, tanka attempts to capture that unique, universal human experience as concise as it possibly can.  Based on my observation (and anyone can school me on this), tanka appears to be the free verse form of haiku because it doesn't follow the 5-7-5 pattern that  haiku is well known for.

Inspired by the Japanese, I toyed with the idea of applying restrictions to some of my poems too.  Maybe I would publish a book if there's a sizeable amount of these beginning to loiter on my desk or in this blog for your entertainment and scrutiny.  And so in the manner of Gwendolyn Brooks' "we real cool" poem (Selected Poems: 1963), I came up with these three-syllable poems. 

Mind you, I actually wrote the first poem ten years ago where Mother Nature plays a very big role as the source of my inspiration.  I did some revision in order to fit the structure I wanted for it.    As for my second poem, it's something I wrote just recently.  I did not apply rhyming schemes as of yet because I'm not that much of an expert in doing it. So pardon if they're not quite musical sounding as I'd want them to be.  :-)


Stream

Clear water,
calm water,
flow silent
and smoothly
by the banks
around stones
under soles
of my shoes.

Cool water,
hushed water,
sing to me
your secrets
as shadows
of this world
flow in space
without sound.





   ....




Twenty-two

Twenty-two,
gun tucked well
in his old
underwear.
Quite a job,
scum career
learned with friends
since age twelve.

Dark, his friend,
true comrade,
covers him
pretty well  --
eyes hunting
leather bags,
gold bracelets,
new smartphones,
back pockets
bulging with
thick wallets.

Very hungry
hyena
on the prowl,
looking for
quick money,
waiting at
corner streets
in this city
where lampposts
for a long,
long, long time
never lit.

Pants: And because it is May 1, and I'm posting things....

                                          Time to make you big.  BAM!